Oh and by the way

Bad habit of mine: getting two tickets to an event and THEN looking for a date. It’s a low self-esteem thing I guess, where I feel I need to bribe other people to spend any time with me. In my history I’ve spent hundreds of dollars on events I didn’t want to go to, and sometimes gotten two tickets for things I did want to see that then went unused.

In short, it’s a really good way to beat myself up. And it’s not like I have any shortage of ways to beat myself up.

So I did it again, but I’m keeping in mind the lesson of dinner last Friday night: the purpose, I’m reminding myself, is for me to go and have a good time. Anything else is gravy.

Auf Der Maur tickets were only $13 each. So if I end up paying $26 to see Auf Der Maur by myself, well, that’s A-okay by me. I’m going to the show. If someone else that I’d like to go with wants to come along, I’m equipped to make that possible. If I don’t find someone that I want to bring along, maybe some poor soul will be looking for a scalped ticket outside Slims. or maybe I’m paying an extra $13 so the show won’t be as crowded. Doesn’t matter.

Woo! I’m going to Auf Der Maur!