Steven M Scotten

It’s a piece of advice that’s older than the hills, and yet still so easy to ignore. At least for me, it is. I’ve been paying attention to how my environment affects my mental state and my attitude. My apartment’s appearance has become critical since I’

I’m coming to terms with my apartment right now, and I hope this isn’t some phase. Basically, the place has been a disaster area ever since I moved in, and it’s still a mess now, but it’s starting to piss me off. I’m embarrassed to

Hammerhead [http://hammerhead.livejournal.com/] has been encouraging me to do longer runs, so last night at the gym I started out by setting the timer to 45 minutes. There were lots of machines free, so I didn’t feel guilty about ignoring the 30-minute time limit. First, I matched

This is my third and final night at Tassajara. I suppose things have smoothed out a little bit. I feel like an outsider, but not as much as I did when I arrived. Now I feel like a… perhaps a visitor. It’s very plain to me that I’m

Again I’m uncomfortable because I’m followed around by this person called me. Being here at Tassajara has been very challenging. I was afraid that I wouldn’t be able to sit for long enough to make it through zazen, but this Morning without realizing, I sat longer than

At sitting tonight I sat at my zafu and immediately started to sob. I was faced with a n overwhelming sense that I was in the middle of something much bigger than I am. I felt that here I am protected, and maybe I’m able to see myself in